Nothing Really Bothers Her

New Year's Resolution

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Thu, 03 Dec 2009 16:02:12 GMT

I've decided to make my resolution becoming a better writer and since I consider myself to be Pagan I'm already a month into the new year and can make this effective immediately.

Since moving in with my lovely brother, sister-in-law, and nephew in Dearborn Heights, I have been catching up with close friends quite a lot. This has inspired lots of interesting conversations. The conversations that seem never-ending over coffee or what have you whilst in good company where at times you have something really good to say but forget it because someone else is already talking and it would be rude to interrupt.

But I digress with these pretty words and trying to create a proper run-on sentence. The point is I've been having a lot of these conversations that remind me of previous discussions that at times I bring up so I can discuss them with new people. One of my favorite reminisced topics is that of the meaning of life. The simplest and most obvious of questions with the weightiest of answers that aren't really answers at all but merely speculations.

It is my belief the the meaning of life is to never stop learning. The intention of our nature is to fail and thusly to try again. If we don't eventually try something new we will simply repeat the same actions and receive the same results. This is the definition of insanity. So in order to live a life that is not one of a true mad man, we must try something different to yield new results to present more confrontation with decisions, so on and so forth.

There are also others that choose not to make decisions at all. First of all, this is a choice in and of itself which when repeated will yield the same results, insanity again. Secondly, can this really be considered true living? Of course not. These people aren't learning anything because if they did they would open their eyes and realize that they have been wasting all their time doing nothing when there has been a whole world to explore all along!

So I encourage each and everyone one of you along with the rest of the world not to be a person that repeats any kind of action other than having an open mind. Sure, there are dangers out there, but what's the point of leading a life with no risk, no opportunity to learn something new? I open the floor to you.

I've never felt like this before...

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Tue, 16 Dec 2008 22:20:38 GMT

If only for a moment,
I'd reach out to touch your hand.
If only for a moment,
My life would be so grand.

If only for a moment,
I would lean in for a kiss.
If only for a moment,
My life would be such bliss.

If only for a moment,
I'll look into your eyes,
And in that crazy moment,
I come back to realize

These moments aren't mine to have.

I know I'm a dork but...

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Tue, 01 Jul 2008 01:24:27 GMT

I totally can't wait to go back to school. If that makes me a loser, so be it. The way I see it, the sooner I get this done and over with, the sooner I can shack up with my sweetie and get on with my life.

In other news, saw WallE the other day. Cutest damn movie ever made.

Give me a 10 for Panic At The Disco's Pretty. Odd. Photo Seriously, this pic is so much cooler than all the rest.

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Thu, 17 Apr 2008 02:29:26 GMT

Give me a 10 for Panic At The Disco's Pretty. Odd. Photo

Seriously, this pic is so much cooler than all the rest.

New Poem!

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Mon, 24 Mar 2008 17:42:20 GMT

Why do you hide your face?
You're such a beautiful girl!
Composed with elegant grace,
Why hide yourself from the world?

Pull your hair back from your eyes.
Place a smile upon your lips.
There's no need to be so shy,
But please don't be your own eclipse.

No need to dress in skimpy clothes.
We know that's not your taste.
You don't even have to strike a pose,
Just show us that pretty face!

Untitled as of right now. Any suggestions for one?

Hey guys!

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Fri, 14 Mar 2008 21:14:45 GMT

I know I don't update much, mostly because I never know what to say, but I'm trying to change that.

I think I'm finally getting the ball rolling on my life. I'm almost ready for my road test and am hoping to be driving with my own car within the next two months. Go me!

The weather was really nice today. I decided not to waste it and walked my happy ass a mile and a half to 7-11 to get a Slurpee and the stalest Rice Krispie Treat of my life. I made a stop at a dollar store next door too, got myself a cool little flashy shamrock, cos I'm cool like that, then walked my happy ass the mile and a half back home. Thank the universe for portable music players.

And in other news, my relationship has lasted for over a year, and I couldn't be happier. For the first time, I'm with someone I know I can completely trust. It's a nice feeling. I don't know what I would do if I couldn't go to bed at night knowing that he loves me, and I love him.

Loooong time Nooooo update

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Tue, 04 Mar 2008 16:56:34 GMT

Dana --

[adjective]:

Visually addictive

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

I found this thing, it's cool. Kudos to Jacob.

Untitled

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Mon, 14 Jan 2008 18:19:57 GMT

Feeling like crap today. Physically felt like crap yesterday, but that was my own fault. Felt like crap the day before that. Either it's seasonal depression or I need to start worrying about the b word again.

Chaos Theory

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Thu, 04 Oct 2007 16:27:09 GMT

Disclaimer: Although my religious/spiritual views are not 100% Christian, I accept the fact that I was raised in a Christian society as well as the rest of the people born and raised in this country. I write my thoughts with this Christian influence so I don't sound like a broken record saying "a higher power" in replacement of God and so my writing is less frilly and for the understanding of all who may read it.

God listens to his MP3 player on random. I don't say iPod because God believes in free will which does not include monopolies. God picks all his favorite songs, each one speaking to his soul in a different way. These files get stored together and put on a random setting inside a world also hand picked by God. All these songs God loves are played out as they choose to be. Maybe not the exact way God would have chosen, but he gave them free will to do as they please.

We are these songs. Each hand picked with a special place in the universe, but right now, we are stuck in our world. When it is our time to be played, we will know it, and our song will be heard by all with open ears, open hearts, and open minds.

You know what sucks?

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Thu, 20 Sep 2007 17:45:23 GMT

My brother giving my Harvest Moon for my birthday a few days early, getting all excited to play it, running upstairs, popping it in the Gamecube, not enough memory space, going back, making enough memory space, starting the game again, and the game isn't responding to the controller. Well, I can confirm stuff, but I can't MOVE!!

Long story short, I got a new game I've wanted for a long time and can't play it. And it's not like there's anything wrong with the controller because it works with Animal Crossing and such, but it just won't work for Harvest Moon. My soul is saddened.

And in other news, three days until I am 18! Hurray for porn, strip clubs, lottery tickets and tobacco!!

My Birthday Celebration!

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Fri, 24 Aug 2007 16:13:38 GMT

So if you haven't already gotten an event invite from me on myspace, here's the info because I'm a lazy bitch that doesn't like repeating herself.

The basic rundown, I'm gonna be at Ren Fest on my birthday (sept 23) and I'm just gathering everyone I know to come and have fun with me, so if you want to go, come have fun with us, if not, you suck!

Grrr

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Fri, 10 Aug 2007 19:02:10 GMT

Why don't guys know what they want? And why do I get so upset from time to time when he does stupid things and doesn't understand why I'm so sad? Maybe this is proof that we don't work together and I really am stupid for dragging it out. Mabye this is just more proof that things aren't what they seem and I should just give up.

Random Ramblings of a Near-Madwoman

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Fri, 27 Jul 2007 16:36:32 GMT

Manifest destiny is the music we have to face while fate can still change. Find a penny face up, keep it for luck. When faced with a question, flip it once to decide your fate, but it won't change your destiny. You can try playing hide and seek with it, but it'll always find you, even if you're playing in the dark. If you're lucky, you'll find a clover with four leaves, hoping it will make fate your friend. What you put in is what you take out, but karma has a way of unbalancing the scales. If justice is what you seek, keep karma somewhere safe, and make sure you don't disrupt it. LIfe is what you make it, so create, but don't take more than what you deserve out of the cookie jar.

Something Different

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Fri, 29 Jun 2007 01:57:06 GMT

I've never been so ok with feeling so upset before. It's weird, like I can feel myself evolving and crumbling apart at the same time, yet I know it's a good thing. Who am I to keep him from doing something he wants to do that can make him a better person? I realized how much I care about him a while ago, but now I'm remembering why I was scared to. I think there won't ever be a time that I don't love him at least a little bit.

The only thing that scares me is I realized when I start college, my support system will all be so far away from me. I'm not sure I can take care of myself when all the people I care the most about are only a phone call away, and only a phone call away.

It's Coming...

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Tue, 26 Jun 2007 20:37:16 GMT

Angst!!!

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Sun, 10 Jun 2007 18:07:40 GMT

So I have decided that I am angry at the universe, for it makes me think and ponder with no answers awaiting me any time soon, and perhaps never. I know I really only use my journal to write all the negative things I think or that are going on, other than to totally amazing things I need to broadcast to the world, but fear not, I am not turning into an emo kid anymore than I already am. I'm merely stating that Poe once said, "mysteries force a man to think, and so injure his health," and although I am rather fond of this quote, I think it applies to thinking in general, or at least thinking in my brain when it's constantly on overdrive-analysis-mode, give me more things to think about I can't get enough and NO I will NOT turn off!!!!

After today...

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Sat, 02 Jun 2007 16:04:23 GMT

I will officially be a high school graduate, and my high school career will be dead. Bring on the all night party, which is 007 themed (thank god something this year was, the t-shirts are pretty sweet, too) and there's a License to Thrill to be fullfilled.

Behold!

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Thu, 31 May 2007 21:12:03 GMT

http://www.universalorlando.com/harrypotter/index.html

Fandom at it's best. Dana's new life goal in two/three years: get a job there!

Prom

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Sun, 27 May 2007 22:02:10 GMT

I felt so pretty, and less awkard than I expected. But now I think I'm even more confused than before, and I'm not so sure that I care. Hooray for witty text message battles and making out in tents!!?

And I feel slightly sick. Kinda nauseous at times and slightly dizzy, but at least my sore throat went away.

Poop turns into Shit

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Thu, 24 May 2007 00:02:15 GMT

You know, I've been bracing myself for it for the past few days, but even though I'd rather not acknowledge it, it still kind of stings. Once again, feel like a retard, mostly for thinking this would be any different, and the reasons I have for thinking it would be any different are seriously fucking with my head.

Boys are so over-rated. Guess who's two inches from falling off the fence and becoming a lesbian?

Damn

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Thu, 17 May 2007 19:21:43 GMT

I wish I knew what he was really thinking, if there really is something bothering him or if it's his whole fear-of-rejection-so-in-result-I-push-people-away-thing. And that's totally fine, but I need to know, because I take it personally when I get pushed away and I can't handle that right now. Poop.

Update

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Wed, 02 May 2007 21:44:13 GMT

So I realized I haven't updated in a while, and since it's a new month, I decided that would be the thing to do today.

Basically, I'm getting close to the end of my high school career, and I'm having a hard time staying awake in class. As a matter of fact, I have no trouble staying awake in my art classes, but maybe that's because they're the only ones that actually keep me busy. Oh well, only a few more weeks to go. Woo, go me!!

Eh.

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Thu, 19 Apr 2007 00:30:33 GMT

So for some reason I've been in a downtrodden mood for the past few days. It very well could just be the I'm-off-of-spring-break-and-I-get-out-of-school-in-six-weeks downer thing, but I dunno. It could also be the way I get when spring is here, but it's not, cos Michigan is a fucking teasing, bipolar bitch when it comes to mother nature. Or it could just be my intuition telling me that something bad is going to happen soon, which worries me because my aunt is leaving for Florida on Friday, and my Mummy is coming over tomorrow night so she can watch me for the 10 days while Auntie is gone. Either way, I just have to wait it out and see what happens. I'm sure this feeling will go away by the end of the weekend.

Laura gave me "n"

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Thu, 05 Apr 2007 23:50:36 GMT

Leave a comment and I'll give you a letter;
then you have to list 10 things you like starting with that letter.
Post them in your journal and give out new letters to your commenters in turn.

NI!: As in the Knights who say NI!
Night: Nighttime is fun, the sky is pretty, the moon is mesmerizing, and that is generally when we sleep.
Nick: My bro, he's an interesting character, and he makes me laugh.
Nirvana: One of my favorite bands ever. 'Nuff said.
Nightmare Before Christmas: I have a tin NBC lunch box! It's the bomb! Plus, who can resist BOTH Tim Burton and Danny Elfman?
Nate: My nephew, he's the most adorable boy in the world and I love him to pieces.
Nathan Lane: ...and Matthew Broderick in The Producers. Once again, 'nuff said.
Nummies!: I love it when people call food nummies, it's so cute.
New Book Smell: Don't you just love getting a new book and that smell that emanates from the page?
Neo-Noir Films: They're always interesting, and it's just on my mind cos I proof read Domenic's paper on Noir films today, which I gave him the idea for in the first place.
Nuva Ring Commercials: Let Freedom Ring!! Haha, it killed me the first time I saw it. I wasn't sure whether to be appalled or die of laughter.

..dunno...

dandy_dananni@yahoo.com — Mon, 02 Apr 2007 18:49:56 GMT

So for some odd reason I've been having this feeling something terrible is going to happen soon. And some other odd reason I feel like it has something to do with Domenic. It really could just be pms, god I fucking hate female hormones, they make me feel so stupid.

Or maybe it's just the fact that he's already done more for me than anyone or that I would only ask in a rhetorical question, so normaly I would be getting tossed aside soon, or someone else would start looking better than me. Which is why I don't understand why I'm complaining, since I always have to remind myself I'm an awsome girlfriend when someone actually takes the time to realize it. I think I'm just waaay too used to being independent and my defense mechanisms are starting to stir, since this would be the time I would look back to and point out all the red flags I didn't let myself see.